Well hi tumblr. Long time no post. So I’m pretty positive I won’t get any likes but I have to start somewhere I guess (again). Sooooooo time for a short rant. I hate my life. It’s very depressing, boring and lacks any flavor at all. I dont mean to whine and sound over dramatic, but I think sometimes you need to be a little over dramatic in order to make a change. I’m not who I want to be and I’m not where I want to be in my life. It’s not cause I’m a senior and still stuck in high school. That’s no excuse for my life to be lacking excitement adventure and the thrill making new friends. I lost myself and its just now getting to me. I’m tired of being lazy and quiet and caring what people. I never use to be this way I just don’t feel fun anymore I feel awkward annoying quiet and mostly scared. I’m the type of person that wants to stick out in a crowd and make mark in the world. I don’t want to just be another body roaming aimlessly. So Im taking a step forward. The scared me wouldn’t post something like this because I would think ” no one is going to read it. What’s the point? And if they do they will think its fucking dumb!” but you know what? I don’t give a fuck. Writing this makes me feel better and makes me feel like I’m going to make a change and if you think I’m weird or this is stupid, that’s fine. I didn’t write this to make you feel better. I wrote this to get some perspective for myself. And you no what… IT FUCKING WORKED! I talk to my friends and sometimes give them advice and I realized what I say is complete bullshit!!! because I sooooo don’t practice what I preach. I tell them to not regret anything, be themselves, live THEIR life and fuck what others think. I mean WOW I really need to take my own advice haha. It just hit me how time fucking flies and its seriously making me dizzy. It’s time I plant my feet and start walking with my head held high and ready to have a fucking great life with no one in my way and especially not myself.
And in saying this, if Someone reads this and it catches your attention in some way, message me. It’s about time I meet some new people:)